Well I must have set myself up yesterday by saying there would be days were I just wouldn’t feel it. Today was kind of one of those days. It is not that anything specific happened to make me not motivated, well that’s not exactly true.
My goal weight is 175 and this has been kind of like the pie in the sky weight I have held in the back of my mind for a while. Now that I am getting close, I still do not look the way that I thought I would when I got there.
I think that I have a realistic idea of how I want to look, regardless of the weight that this pertains to, and I do not look close to that. I told Alex this, and she was supportive in the way that a girlfriend should be, by not being sympathetic. She was hard on me when I needed it, I have to be happy with what I have done this far, and be patient for getting where I want to go.
I have to remind myself that this is a lifestyle change, and that it didn’t take a couple months to put all this weight on (all the usual hackneyed sayings). Got to keep to the path, and keep going, because if I go back to the way I was, I will never reach my goal (I always have to keep this in mind).
Thank you Alex for being the rock I need.
Breakfast: Skyr (100 cal.)
Mid-morning snack: Banana (120 cal.)
Lunch: Lentil Soup (1g fat, 250 cal.)
Mid-afternoon snack: Apple (100 cal.)
Dinner: Vegetarian Sandwich + Salad (13g fat, 450 cal.)
Total calories: 1020.
Today I continued week 2 of my couch-to-5k program and it felt a lot easier than last week.
I think this was in part because Nathaniel and I were pretty active this weekend although we didn’t “work out” in the traditional sense. A walk across San Francisco is nothing to sneeze at.
After the gym I went to Lucky’s and purchased mushrooms, zucchini, an apple and a few other things to make a delicious vegetarian sandwich for dinner that Nathaniel and I both love with a salad.
I included the recipe in another blog because I don’t want to spam people with my day-to-day writing (like this). We are actually getting a decent amount of hits for this being Day 9 of the blog. We had 80 views yesterday!
The recipes we’ve been putting out are getting the most hits- hence why I want to be able to advertise those separately.
Nathaniel was feeling bummed today because although he has lost 40 lbs. he isn’t as close to looking the way he thought he would after all that weight loss. While I certainly understand that, I feel he has hit to many personal benchmarks lately to be reasonably feeling that way.
Something I kind of brought up to him the other day was how depressing it can be for me to be so far behind him in weight loss. He started this regimen before I moved back to California and had lost about 25 lbs. before I lost my first 5.
As his girlfriend it’s hard to fight back feelings of insecurity when I know there is no healthful way for me to catch up to him in weight loss. By the time he reaches his overall goal in physical appearance I will only be half way to mine. Maybe not even that.
Any way you look at it –that’s hard for me to deal with psychologically.
Siggi’s Yogurt (100 cal.)
Banana (120 cal.)
Red Pear (103 cal.)
Lentil Soup (250 cal. 1g fat)
Vegetarian Sandwich + Salad (450 cal. 13g fat)
Total: 1,023 Calories 14g fat