Day 200… that’s a lot of days.
Today I weighed in at -48.5 lbs. and although I am sure Nathaniel could make a really good guess at what I weighed when we started TwoAHealthyLife I think I’ve done a good job of keeping the exact number a secret.
However, I promise to tell everyone what my initial weight was when I am “done”.
My parents know, a few chica friends know but I don’t think I’ve told any men.
When I look in the mirror I can kinda tell I’ve lost weight but what really shows me how far I’ve come is seeing my before pictures and the number on my jeans.
I understand this sounds crazy: “Alex, seriously? You’ve lost almost 50 lbs. how can you only ‘kinda’ tell?”
We are our own worst critics. When I look in the mirror after weighing in every morning I still see flab, stretch marks and cellulite. There are less of those things now but I still have them.
Also- the last time I weighed this much I was a senior in High School so mentally that’s what I am comparing myself too. (Now I am laughing to myself) I weigh less right now at 24 than I did at 18.
The biggest difference for me is that when I see those things I don’t care anymore. I feel in control of my health and what my body looks like and I know that eventually, probably within the next few months, all the flab and cellulite will be gone.
So what’s next?
Once I hit -70 lbs. on the scale I am going to hire a personal trainer to help me build muscle.
I find it easier to subsist on a middle schooler’s calorie allotment than to motivate myself to lift weights… I find it boring.
My Answer? Pay someone a lot of money to shame me into it.
Thank you so much to everyone who reads TwoAHealthyLife and gives us feedback! Knowing you all are listening helps motivate us to keep writing and running.
So I have to start this post off with the fact that I am a slacker (more like I forgot) because yesterday was day 200 and Alex wrote a great blog and I should have done the same, but spaced it out. So today is our 201st day about the 200th day of our blog / health adventure.
Looking back over it, 200 days seems like a long time, but it has flown by. For me the adventure started even before that, with October (I don’t remember the exact day, so we will say October 1) being the start date of my diet/exercise program.
Since October I have lost 65 pounds (the scale this morning said 160, so I will go with that), I fluctuate now on a weekly basis between 155 and 160 and I am ok with that. I am in the best shape of my life seeing as the last time I weighed this much I was in 7th grade (yeah I know).
Some weeks are harder then others, sometimes I don’t even think about being on the diet and controlling what I eat and other weeks it is a struggle. I still want to over eat on occasion and I would like to delve deeper into this issue and understand where the desire for this steams from so that I can address that problem.
I read Alex’s post and I can empathize with her feelings, as around 185 lbs. I was still looking in the mirror and hating what I saw. There was still flab and muffin top and I just wondered how much more weight it was going to take for me to be happy with what I saw.
Apparently that was 25 more pounds (and if you would have told me that at 185 I would have screamed), but I just took it one week, one day, one meal at a time and eventually I hit my goal.
For the first time in my life I am happy with the way my body looks (though that doesn’t mean I don’t see areas for improvement) and am confident when I go out. As Alex said, this whole process has shown me that I am significantly more in control of not only how my body looks, but how I feel on a daily basis. There doesn’t seem to be a disconnect anymore between they way I want to look and feel and the way I know I can look and feel.
In the end what I have to remind myself on occasion (especially on weeks where I slip on my diet or don’t exercise as much as I want) about how far I have come in such a short amount of time. It hasn’t even been a year and I am closer then I have ever been in my life to looking the way I want to look.
I am excited about the 200 days and can’t wait for the one year marker to see where Alex and I are.
Thank you everyone for your support, love, and kind words through this endeavor; we hope someone else can see that big changes are possible if you work at it.
With much appreciation,